I’ve had trouble figuring out what to publish to the blog today. It’s been a week today since I left Canada and in a strange way it seems like so much has happened since I left to go on my trip there… until I really think on it and then it doesn’t. Guess that’s how life works.
I’ve been a bit unsettled this week. It’s sometimes like that when either I leave them or he leaves me. It takes me just a bit to settle back into my normal routine of work and life, separate yet together.
Since coming home they have built a walkway to the gate with rails that turned out beautifully and added a roof over the double swing in the backyard. Both helpful and amazing things, especially for our Knight’s father. Making life easier for loved ones is important, I think!
At home here, our air conditioner is broken and we’re waiting on a part. I have installed a little window unit in my bedroom so I no longer feel as though I’m going to spontaneously combust. I’m all about the small joys in life and cool air is definitely one of them!
I have started painting on quitling squares my grandmother started over 25 years ago. I can’t wait until they are all done and I can piece together the quilt. I wish I knew who she had originally planned to give it to so I could gift it to them once done. I can’t tell you what joy and peace of mind painting that first square last night brought to me after the last few weeks of feeling a bit off kilter, fatigued and in pain.
And after close to five years, several doctors and a move across country I have finally found a most wonderful doctor. A recent diagnosis of rheumatoid arthritis explains a lot of my life over the last few years. The strange fatigue and joint pain and the other autoimmune type stuff going on. After my appointment with a local rheumatologist on Thursday last week, I am scared but for the first time in a long while, I have hope for a more normal daily existence. During this appointment my new doctor told me I had a bright future ahead of me and that he was going to get me back to my old self.
I’ve made many changes to my life over the last few years. Some felt huge, some just happened because they made my life easier and less painful and I didn’t really notice them as they happened. They were necessary. I learned how to be a new me and although I often get frustrated I am guessing the experiences have made me a more compassionate and caring person to those living life around me and so I will consider this too a blessing. Or maybe not, but giving it some positive energy makes me feel better about this battle and so I do it even if only for my own benefit.
So you see, even though in some ways it seems as if so much has changed in a few short weeks time, it hasn’t necessarily done so. We’re still living our lives, loving one another to the fullest while working and being family. I really couldn’t ask for more.
We are one and this is what family looks like for us.
All the best!